I saw him!

I can't believe i saw him again after all these years.. act, itz not years.. but please be assured that it has been quite long.. abt a yr or so already.. N at sch of all places.. act, shouldn't be surprised that he's there cos there was e inter-varsity volleyball match n brandon n xinfu was playing.. n those 2 guys were from TP.. guess he juz went there to take a look.. N now i'm blaming myself why i didn't follow my feelings n join e organising team for the vball matches.. sigh~ anyway, he hasn't changed much.. looks pretty mush the same.. 'cept that he was wearing a cap, so couldn't see his face v well.. but elizabeth said that he wasn't bad looking.. haha.. but that's a pretty general statement.. she also said he would look better if he had more build.. but think he's not bad now.. considering that he was quite skinny when he was sec2.. haha.. anyway, ruiling was wih them too.. she saw me.. i know she recognized me.. but guess she wasn't that inclined to at least greet or smile at me.. i know she recognised me 'cos she looked at me for a long while.. & after we walked passed each other when i looked back to confirm wad i saw, they guys were looking back.. so i guess she told them she saw this girl from xinmin vball or wadeva.. in any case, she knew me, knew tt i recognised her (cos i smiled at her), but didn't wan to greet me..
so guess that's the last time i'll see him for a long time.. haha.. called jane after i saw him.. she asked if my heart did beat a tad faster when i saw him.. i can't say it did.. but i oso cannot say it didn't.. so be welcomed to draw wadeva conclusions u have abt my feelings for him right now..
if u sae i still have some for him.. den it'll be quite silly, cos it has been like 2 yrs.. it is absurd.. don't u think? Esp those hu know wad really happened during those days.. Lucky not many know.. haha.. anyway, he's part of the past now.. i won't ever see him again.. & if u're reading this n think i still like him n know him personally or thru somebody, pls keep this to urself or i'll help u stuff it up ur ass, thank you very much. haha.. sorry for e crudeness.. (The "haha" was there to lighten e atmosphere, but i'm still serious) Anyway, not many ppl know hu i'm toking abt.. so it beta not get ard else i'll noe hu spread it.. i know i sound really angry n fierce n defensive right now.. but i really, seriously don't like ppl talking behind my back.. i didn't like it then, n i don't like it now.. ya, i noe.. nobody likes ppl talking behind their back.. but i've had enough of blatant lies n transparent "acting" back then.. so pls dun act as if i'm stupid.. if u're speculating some things abt me, come ask me.. i'm not "blissfully unaware" of those things.. n i won't eat u up.. i can't believe that after 2 yrs of spending time together everyday u guys still don't understand me.. guess that was too much to ask..